Summary is my weak point

Oh my gosh, every entry that I have done so far are so long. Looks more like an essay. No wonder I used to score so badly in summary.

Speedy Gonzales

I was a very clumpsy kid, really clumpsy. I bumped into table corners, chairs corners, any furniture that we had at home, I think I had bumped into them all. If you think that must be quite a bit of bumping into, you haven't know everything. I walked into walls too. Yup, you did not hear wrong... I walked into walls and into doors as well. That's why, our house was not child proof, because it would meant the entire house need to be made of sponge.

No one had any idea why I was that clumpsy, not until one day in my university days. Yup, yup, that long to discover why. So yes, I was still walking into walls through my teenage years. My brother remarked one day when I had just returned home from school

Bro: I knew it was you, even without checking?

Me: How? My footsteps? (coz I also know my footsteps are a bit heavy for a small person like me...blame it on NCC...marching competition...)

Bro: Nope, it was more the door. Opened, in 2sec closed. No one else at home squeezed through a hole to come home, except you

That was like Eureka. That's right. I know I am very small size and I often will not wait till the lift door is fully open before entering or coming out of it and so I am always finding the shortest route to get to somewhere, including going into my room from the living room, explaining walking into walls. Ha ha, of course also means my estimation of distance quite bad la. But see, I am also always looking for shorter and shorter route.

I want everything fast, I get frustrated not learning fast, not getting fit fast enough, server being too slow (according to WEP, no computer is fast enough for me).

That's why when I choose my career just out of uni, I chose a job that kept my heart pumping very fast. Everything needed to be resolved just now, in 5mins time, deadline usu within mins not days. I loved it, it was fast, I liked it.

Even with eating, I want it fast. Fluids are my fav, I hate chewing, I loved my milk as a child. Best was to piss off my mother enough to send me off the dining table at meal times, no more chewing!!!! Waste of time.

I was always told, to slow down, calm down, take your time. Daddy always say that. But until recently, I didn't know why I need to or that it would be good for me. After all, we live in a fast paced environment.

Until, I have to learn to drive. I am always scolded for not being able to control speed, that I rush into action. That I should just relax and take my time to execute the actions. This is indeed a new department for me. Not an easy one, but one definitely to be conquered.

The Beauty of Nature

I am not too sure if anyone has noticed. Plants cools the estate. I grew up in a small, matured and very happening estate of Boon Lay. It is a very "colorful" place.

We lived facing the main road (which actually is not very big la) and have a huge open space right in front of our block. Apparently, as observed by WEP much later, our block of flats also marks the turning point for fighter planes returning home , and flying out from their nearby base. So the roaring sound of planes have been the humming sound of my childhood. Okay, I am definitely drifting off course now.

There are loads of old, huge trees all around the estate, and our flat is often cool, and cold when there is a storm. Wind hitting our windows and doors are common occurence.

We moved out of this beautiful flat in quest of a "bigger" apartment when I started working. My mum wanted some new perspective of life which she concluded can be attained by a new flat. Duh....I know.

So we moved into a new estate and though it is not too far off from where we were living, the place was constantly warm, even after loads of heavy downfall. It just wasn't pleasant at all. Years later, the apartment actually became cooler than before and I observed at about the same time, the plants and trees that were first planted as landscape to the estate seem to look settled in, seem to have taken root to its new home. But then this is only 1 observation.

Recently, I moved again to a far away land of Sengkang where everyone who attempts their journey here and not get lost are considered a genius. It is another new estate, and no rain seem to cool down the place. There used to be a huge grassland in front of our block, which really cools our apartment, but this of course will have to give rise to more residential apartments. So gone is our view of the mental hospital (which was really serene, believe it or not) and gone too was the nice cool weather.

I am just hoping the trees take root quicker and the eco system will speed up their process of creating their very important community so that I can enjoy the cool weather which nature brings. Sad to say, nature cannot be hurried.

I hope we start to think before cutting down the trees in our quest to get more model, newer, more classy buildings. Buildings are easily built (of course, it still take time, effort and lots of brain skill to have a good one), but trees, grass, plants do not grow and take root as we wish.

As depicted in the animated movie, Wall E, I do hope that we do not come to the day where the small bean sprout plant becomes the only rare and precious sight. And really without nature, we will have no diamonds, non gold or even fuel for our daily lives.

As clinque as some of those "Save our Earth" ads may look, they really are NOT.

Let's us embrace the beauty that is first given to us to enjoy, where it is nutured from the heavens above. And let's remember our first calling of looking after the garden of Eden, because the nature around us, really is our garden of Eden.

The Long Crawl Home

Being a homemaker has made me more careful with the way I spend money recently. I have been wanting for some time now to regain all that I have lost in the fitness department eversince I stopped working. But of course, without a job, equates no money, hence personal training is definitely out, until True Fitness takeover of Planet Fitness. Two free personal training sessions to kickstart my very cold muscles. This is so heaven sent. My desire answered without even me starting to ask.

So without hesitation, I SMSed my personal trainer with the thickest of skin on my part and ask if he could train me with the free vouchers.

So at 7pm last evening, I started to train again. Obviously having stopped training for 1 year now, I have forgotten what it was like. But soon enough all memories started flooding right back. What am I doing? I have just volunteered to get tortured. But well no pain no gain, right?

So with a great hour of being tortured, but a good dinner at nearby hawker center at Zion Rd, we started to head home from Great World via CTE.

It was a nightmare, there was a huge jam that started right from Orchard Tunnel and there is not sight of clearance until Ang Mo Kio Ave 3.

No sight of accident or anything to explain the jam. We were literally crawling along CTE, inch by inch. I certainly could have made it home faster walking. As we inched along, it took us an hour plus to reach Bradell exit, and there is still no sign of the jam improving. Well, there is a notice that said there was a flood at Ang Mo Kio Ave 3 and only 1 lane is passable to traffic. But seriously, flood on expressway, enough to stop traffic flow??? Hmmm...

Well it was very true indeed when we passed it. (Have attempted to take a photo but with the not so great skill of EP driving and a van in the way, I failed) It was a quite a flood. Hmmm, wondering why we are paying so those ERP which is especially much on CTE and have quality road like that. Hope they embark on some improvement work soon, given all the road works already underway everywhere in Singapore.

It took us a total of close to 2 hours to get home from what was usually the most an half hour drive at moderate speed (PS: EP does not drive moderate speed, he drives a VIOS like a Lambongini). I was surprised we reached home before midnight. Wonder what was the damage for people taking cab last night. Maybe they were sweating blood as the meter ran faster than the traffic. Hmmmm

Life in the Tai Tai lane

Today marks the end of my second week in Taitaidom. This seemingly glamourous life is giving me cold turkey. Maybe I didn't read in the instruction manual properly before embarking...Better go back and study it again.

Honestly, I am wondering if I am truly coping with reality. Perhaps I still getting this idea that I am just having a longer than usual vacation. Thankfully, I have great friends who remind me occasionally (though it does pain me severely) that I really don't have all the time in the world to get my air ticket and insurance done. A great thank you coz I do need that painful reminder to get out of my escapist state.

So how am I doing? I can only say I am learning to cope.... I knew it would be hard for me since I have not stopped working since after A levels, working through University whenever I can find time to squeeze working in the equation. But I didn't think it would hit me this hard. I guess I am just thankful that I didn't stop work on other reasons like health...

I know this is the time for me to do something for myself and I guess as with everything, there is always the first time. So this will be my first time, doing something for myself.

Believe it or not, I am already freaking out... But then again, I always freak out at new things, like learning to drive. Nope I am not anywhere near getting the license yet, still at lessons and always freaking out minutes before every one and tomorrow it will be one everyday, a lot of freaking out to do. That should keep me busy.